Re-shaping my life- chapter 10

I wasn't one to sit atound and feel sorry for myself, well not outwardly anyway. Most mornings Id be up, have Mitchell dressed and go for a walk somewhere as i didnt have a car. I was close to the shops in Glenelg and the beach. It was pretty windy down by the beach and id try to cover the pram with a cloth to protect Mitchell from too much wind. Unfortunately, he must have got something blowing into his eyes and subsequently had conjuntiveitis, which was not an easy thing to treat in a small baby. How we berate ourselves for these things! blaming myself for anything and everything. It was quiet without the ex around. Mum was amazed by my resilience in getting on with the job. She came yo visit me on the second day i was home and she saw me walking the pram up to the shops and couidnt believe her eyes (I was on a mission to get disposable nappies). It was too hard struggling all the time with an outside laundry! I remember at the pharmacy a women behind the counter commented on how clean Mitchell looked all the time, that made my day. I eventually went out with a friend one night locally for a break. I had the biggest boobs Id ever had but also leaked through the pads fairly early on so had to go home. I did see a guy i used to date and he gave me his number. He wasn't really my type, a little feminine in his ways for me and my height, but had a good personality and smile. i wasn't looking anyway. I remember not too long afterwards my ex was back again and somehow found the number of the guy. Ofcourse he went off, as if he owned me. So ridiculous after my telling him it was over, but I suppose he still held hope. I wasnt sure how I was going to cope with his presence and anger outbursts. it was time for some big decisions. Meanwhile, mum was having problems with her partner and suggested i move to sydney and she follow. I found another granny flat in Monavale and was on my way. I got a job in a local hot food coffee shop called the 'chick in' lol that id ben visiting with Mitchell. The owner was a middle aged Greek guy who thought theyoung girl workingtheir was stealing from him so gave me a job. i had met a friend n pkaygroup and we took turns taking careof eavh others kids.