Chapter 3- 3rd generation of domestic violence

Daughters story. 


One day I told Marc I had run out of the pill, he said he had no money to buy it for me and unfortunately neither did I so I bought condoms and insisted he wear them.  Well something went wrong there as I was feeling sick one night and got up to go to the toilet and fainted in the bathroom. I came too with mArc hovering over me teArily calling my name and holding me tight. He carried me to the bed and I assured him I was ok and had just fainted. I'd fainted before in my life when dehydrated or stressed. I hadn't really been eating properly either and was getting pretty thin so thought I just needed to eat more.  

A week or two went by and one night Marc came home and couldn't get his key in the door.  I had been feeling a bit sick and dragged myself to the door. Marc was pAle white in colour and just fell into the doorway.  I tried to wake him but he wasn't really responding. I was about to ring an ambulance but he called out no to me and began dribbling a lot of nothing and smiling and laughing about something he had taken that wasn't mKing him feel right. I shook my head and walked off. He sleep there in the doorway.  I'd had pretty much enough of Marc and his irresponsible behaviour and angry outbursts by now and this was like the final straw for me. I wanted to secretly get on a train and ask my dad to stay a while. The next day Marc stayed in bed and didn't manage to get to work. I went to the train station and looked up times for trains leaving the next morning.  

I woke in the morning vomiting again and thought I best go to the doctors first to get something before travelling. I was concerned Marc may follow me to Sydney and I didn't want to bring my problems to dad but I felt I didn't have much choice.  At the doctors, the male doctor asked if I considered I may pregnant. Silly, naive me was shocked again and told him no as we had been using condoms.  He asked me to have anyway. I prob. Was a week late but I'd been stressed so figured maybe that was it.  I took the test and sat in the room with the test on the doctors table and was again shocked when he said that it was positive and I would need to take a blood test too, to confirm.  I felt dizzy and sick again.  My first thoughts were that I would never get away from Marc now.  I wanted the ground to swallow me up. But as I walked out Marc was standing there outside saying he was looking for me and he'd heard me vomiting so came to doctors. He asked me how I was and I just sAid nothing but looked into his concerned eyes, that were always showing a different feeling dAily.  For some reason I told him that I was pregnant and he was ellated, which made me suspicious about the condoms and gave me a big hug. I stood there motionless not sure what to feel. Another young couple waiting looked at us and smiled. I faked a smile back and left with Marc.